|Waiting For the Lord|
God's Grace and the Virtue of Patience
Ring a sinful bell for anyone? Get BEHIND Jesus, Kyle, geez golly oh man! What is my deal lately! Perhaps it was the Sin of autonomy? The fall of my sins here was more a lack of understanding than an inherent will to dictate to God. Innocent enough, for we all learn our lessons. However, while this might not seem inherently bad to those of you who also have a powerful need to pursue God's lessons of faith as if they were short strokes of a paintbrush, the reality is that this kind of 'stepping in front of the Lord' is utterly DISASTROUS for a Christian. In essence, I was accidentally taking the lead in the relationship, thinking I knew better in an unconscious way. My vigor had turned against me.
The good I wanted in my life "for me" had deceived me, just as Peter's good will for Christ would have actually condemned all humanity if he had his way. Another harmless misunderstanding? Perhaps it was since God is always in control regardless, but for both Peter and I the rebuke was painful and hard learned. Deceived by my own desire to correct my flawed character, I became more self-interested in being white as snow which was filled with vanity and false self-actualization in Christ. It became about being more like a Pharisee than it was being righteous for the sake of Christ. It actually caused me to sin the worst sin—heaven became more important than Christ and inherent pride caused me to make demands of God. Winning spiritual treasures became an object to win with hard work and not by Christ’s Grace. My ducks were far from in order.
Wait and be patient for His answers. Be ready to serve in ways that you are not ready for or wanting to. Be instant in-season and out-of-season. Ministry for God means doing things you don't want to and being ready to minister to others in need when you are rushed, tired, lazy, or even sick (etc) and often you may be put into situations that are scary, deadly, uncomfortable (etc). Serving Christ like a pastor is so generic and not terribly useful to Christ for us all since there is a great need for regular people to simply reach out to everyday regular people at any given notice. I have found that my own homelessness had placed me in a position to minister to other homeless people! I found once when I was very sick and near death that I ministered to two other sick people and they began attending church with me! So you see, "doing" things for God is not about not sinning but the change in heart. Your attitudes begin to change. The old things you used to value and want slip away and before you know it you talk about Christ all the time. People listen to you and you suffer for Christ and feel the love of Christ in ways you never thought possible. I had to suffer homelessness and sickness to minister to those three people, so be prepared, being a servant of God is more than not sinning, it's about Christ and being concerned for Him. It's a heart change, not so much about not sinning but grace!
I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.
Jesus says, if you want to be perfect, then that is how you go about achieving that perfection! Even Christ makes it clear what we must do for perfect emulation of Him. Well, what are you waiting for?